Monday, April 24, 2006

THE dream...

so i've realized i have a recurring dream of sorts... it pretty much consists of me being somewhere and basically being lost... i've had a couple where i'll just be standing in the middle of a school, that i'm apparently attending... and i'm sometimes naked, but the main thing is that i've BEEN going to school there for a while and SHOULD know where everything is... but i have no clue where my locker is, let alone the combo... or where my classes are, or where the office is, or who anyone is... last nite i had a dream that i woke up in a foreign place, but i think it was just a part of SF that i haven't been to yet... anyway, i was naked when i woke up in the dream and had no idea where my clothes were, or my keys, or phone, or wallet, or anything else i normally have with me at all times... i had that same feeling of helplessness and vulnerability from the other dreams... and for me these dreams are far worse than any type of dream that most people consider nightmares... i actually LOVE those dreams where you get chased by a maniac, or 50 little gremlins eat you and shove you into a milk-crate (yes i've had that one)... they're kind of like little movies for me... but on the upside i do have a lot of dreams where i'm flying or floating... come to think of it... i remember waking up kind of sweaty last nite... i just figured i was hot... but i think that dream got me all sweaty and anxious... and yea, i'm pretty sure i know what the dreams mean... it seems obvious that it would mean i feel lost and without direction... which is pretty much true...